A Different Type of Alone

May 18, 2023 written in my notes app

I feel like I haven’t had any alone time like this since the friendship breakups.

Things feel different.

I feel more alone in a way.

The decision to walk away feels more amplified.

My memories of them feels distant and tinted. 

I’m a different alone now.

A different version without these people anymore. 

These people I held a lot of my identity with.

I feel myself seeking refuge from my thoughts in my phone.

Checking if there’s a text I’m missing or if there’s something I can use to take my mind off everything.